“What did you hope to find after a year?”
The question was rhetorical or maybe self-indulgent. He was alone, unlike a year ago when they all gathered to scatter his Dad’s ashes over the land he loved so much. He thought about leaving another rose, but it would just wither and serve no one.
What then?
“Maybe this is all there is, Dad. Maybe it’s just you and me sitting together for a quiet hour, alone with each other.”
He listened to the wind and finally realized what it was telling him. His Dad wasn’t here anymore. He’d moved on.
I wrote this for the Rochelle Wisoff-Fields flash fiction writing challenge for April 27th (although the URL says May 11th). The idea is to use the image above as the inspiration for crafting a piece of flash fiction no more than 100 words long. My word count is 100.
My Dad died a year ago last week. The scene somewhat reminds me of Nevada where I grew up, and also of the area in Utah where my Dad liked to fish.
We actually put his ashes in a hole near his favorite high desert lake. Hardly a secluded spot, but then, it really wasn’t my choice. Thinking about going back produces an empty feeling. It’s just water, rock, sand, and sagebrush. Dad isn’t there anymore. His spirit has moved on.
To read other stories based on the prompt, go to InLinkz.com.
And so must we all.
There is, however, a hope — derived from the Jewish scriptures — for a future resurrection of the dead and a final reckoning. Those who survive that encounter may hope to re-encounter one another, as well. If we could invent telephone directories and even more sophisticated means of finding and contacting one another with our limited technologies at present, can we not expect at least as much under the future regime of the “All-knowing”?
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That’s true, though I’m not sure how that’s all supposed to work. Guess I’m dealing with a little “anniversary” loss syndrome.
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It sounds to me as if you’re handling the anniversary of the loss well.
As for the hope, I doubt that anyone currently living can accurately address “how that’s all supposed to work”. We have barely enough information for a glimmer of it and some confidence that it will indeed become a working reality. Nonetheless, as the writer to the ancient Jewish messianists put it in Heb.11:1 (slightly paraphrased) – “… faith [gives] substance [to] things hoped for, [and] evidence [for] things not [yet] seen.” That writer was addressing a different matter, but the principle is no less applicable.
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I am so sorry for your loss James. My Dad died 22 years ago this May, the day after my 40th birthday. His ashes were scattered in the Garden of Remembrance at the Crem, as were my mother’s last month. Dad has always been with me, wherever I am, and Mum has now joined him. In my heart they are together, and so many things or places bring them closer still. There is no one specific place, just everywhere.
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My Mom just turned 86 and is in assisted living. Her memory is slowly going, so in some ways, it’s harder experience. Thanks.
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Mum was 95 and had been diagnosed with dementia a couple of years ago. We always tried to keep the memories going when she joined in the conversation.
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Loved ones become our guardian angels after they are gone..
Their ashes may have been scattered, but they live on…
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Thanks, Anita.
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Sorry for your loss, James. Haven’t experienced the loss of a parent myself and can’t even fathom what it means. However, I really liked how you slowly moved towards acceptance. Well done.
Best wishes,
Rowena
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I think it depends on what stage of life you’re in. If I had lost Dad when I was young, it probably would have crushed me, and even though his death was unexpected, I “held up” surprisingly well. Thanks.
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That does make a difference. My husband was 16 when his Dad died and it’s still raw where his mother died when he was in his 30s and he’s be okay with that.
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Dear James,
Heartfelt and beautifully written. It’s hard to lose a parent at any stage of life, isn’t it?
Shalom,
Rochelle
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Yes, it is. You always know it’s coming, but it’s still a shock when it gets here. Thanks.
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Sorry for your loss, James. My dad died in 2013 and I feel the lack of him every day. This is a moving tribute.
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Thanks, JHC.
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Mine too, Josh. May 23, will be 5 years. Where in the name of hell does time go?
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A touching tribute. My condolences.
Passing of a parent (at whatever age) some how feels like being orphaned.
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In a way. On the other hand, now that I’m a grandparent, I feel I’m taking a little bit of Dad’s legacy forward since he was “Grandpa” to my children.
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My dad has been gone for over 20 years, and I still miss him. That’s a hole that can never be filled. Well-written eulogy here. My condolences on your loss.
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Thank you, Linda.
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Both of my parents are gone and have been for a number of years, but there are so many things that remind me of them. Even, these days, when I look in the mirror and see so much of them in me.
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Yeah, I kind of look like my Dad, although I share almost none of his attitudes or interests (almost).
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A touching scene James, especially knowing it was very personal to you.
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Thanks, Iain.
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Moving on is the best and the toughest we can hope for
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Dear James
You’ve given us a very moving story. I think it’s probably the best of yours that I’ve read. It carries a deal of authenticity. It’s something beautiful that you’ve created out of your loss, Well done.
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Thank you, Penny.
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Very true, James. We all move on and trying to recapture a soul long gone is often a sad exercise. Beautifully written tribute
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Thanks, Lynn.
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My pleasure
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A lovely tribute to your dad. I lost mine about a year and a half ago. He died about three months after my mom. There’s still a wee hole in my heart but I know they’ve gone to a better place, whatever that may be. You captured that feeling. Maybe they don’t need us anymore and are just watching and waiting.
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It’s always difficult to say goodbye to those we love, even those who have moved on.
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I am now one of the oldest in the family, yet I still feel like I am an orphaned child. That we miss our parents is a credit to them. Thank you for sharing your love for parents.
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I’m the oldest in my generation. Besides my Mom, I’ve got some Aunts and Uncles who are still living, although they are getting up there.
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Beautiful piece James. I’m sorry about your father and it is hard at any time although being able to accept it I think differs with age. I know my Dad lives on in my heart and where his ashes are meant something to him but much less to me.
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Beautifully done, James. This is a year of anniversaries for me too. My best friend has been gone 10 years this past April 19 and my father 5 this coming May 23rd. There are far too many anniversaries for me, sadly.
Sending a virtual hug.
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Thank you, Dale. Hugz back.
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those who have passed will remain alive for as long as we remember them. great story.
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The end of the movie, “Star Trek II: The Wrath of Kahn.” Thanks.
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I so agree with Plaridel – I am sure your powerful story has everyone reflecting on those they have lost and still love dearly – and that is just as it should be. Thank you.
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Thanks, Jilly.
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Ashes after all are just ashes. Their place is in the earth. Your father will live on in you and your descendants. That’s all any of us can hope for, I think.
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Thanks, Jane.
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🙂
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Sometimes burying ashes is enough to nourish the ground and produce new life, albeit of a different kind.
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From the earth we come and to the earth we return. Thanks, Liz.
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That was a very beautiful story. I lost my father when I was a teenager and we didn’t have the opportunity to spread his ashes – they are buried in a crematorium. The last time I visited the crematorium, it felt meaningless. Memories are more precious. My condolences for your loss.
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Thanks, Susan.
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A touching scene, and that realisation that dad has moved on. Lovely piece.
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Thank you.
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I think this happens… good that he got to know. Time to move on fore everyone.
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I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my Dad in 2008 and it is the most awful time. This is a beautiful tribute to your Dad.
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Thank you.
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Dear James, I’m so very sorry for your loss. With time, the sorrow eases but will never go away! My mother told me this several years before her death. Prayers!
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Thank you, Nan.
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We all need those moments of solitude and peace, it is refreshing.
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The mornings here lately have been very peaceful. I can hear an owl outside right now, hooting in the pre-dawn darkness.
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I liked the sentiment in this. The departed aren’t anywhere specific but everywhere if you want them to be
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According to Jewish tradition, the spirit of the departed remain near their loved ones for a time and then finally return to the Source. My Mom said she could feel Dad’s presence but it eventually faded.
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I’m so sorry for your loss, James. I really enjoyed your story, a lovely memorial to your dad. I wish you peace during this time of remembrance. Praying for you this week.
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Thank you, Brenda.
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It hurts when you lose a parent. No way around it. However, I find myself talking to they occasionally, and each time we stop working and go get a cup of coffee — which is what we did together. Everyone handles it differently, but one thing for sure — we are next.
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That much is true, Mike. It’s one of the reasons I’m trying to build good memories for my grandchildren now.
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